Day 2- In times of Happy

As previously mentioned, I am a bit of a freak and get two doses of "daily dharma" emailed to my inbox every day...something about pursuit of higher wisdom, blah blah blah... in reality, I'm just one of those Western sheep that search for the solutions to life problems in eastern philosophies that I innately do not understand... I accept this, and am good with it.

Today my daily dharma was all about how it is in times of crisis that we require our practice more- to hold on to an even keel, equamnity... but this doesn't apply to me.  I find my even keel so much more easily in times of crisis- detachment and compartmentalization is kind of my thing.... I blame my father for this (and it is one of many resulting "daddy issues" that I struggle with).

Instead, it seems as though I neglected my routines, the things that keep my even-keeled because I was so happy these past few months- new job, new boyfriend, visiting friends and family on an extended holiday.  I had so much going on in my life that was enjoyable on the outside, I completely forgot to keep the enjoyable on the inside element- something that I need to keep from being miserable when the tides change.

So, as a first step to this, I took the day off from my boyfriend- booked myself a facial* (so needed- it's like my skin is waging war on me) and started back on my daily yoga routine (sort of).

It was nice.  But I'm not blissed out...... yet.

KK.


* things that I forgot- facials make my face peel for two days afterwards, and looking like I walked out of silence of the lambs and into my office does not a blissful person make. Fuck.

Day 1 - Project Bliss

bliss

   [blis] Show IPA

noun

1.

supreme happiness; utter joy or contentment: wedded bliss.

2.

Theology . the joy of heaven.

3.

heaven; paradise: the road to eternal bliss.

4.

Archaic . a cause of great joy or happiness.

No matter how you spin it, bliss seems like a pretty decent goal. It's not happiness- it's supreme happiness. It's not contentment, it's utter contentment. And at the moment, it's out of my reach.

I'm not sure why. I am happy, I am content, but I lack this fleeting blissed out feeling- where all is well regardless of the storms brewing overhead.

My story is not the typical re-make to happiness model. I love my job... like LOVE my job. I have a boyfriend that I really enjoy. I have family and friends, yadda yadda.... so what keeps me in this earthly cynicism that sees me judging people for nothing of importance, engaging in cyclical ridiculousness and not moving through every day with a calm smile gracing my face?

I don't know the answers to that... but this blog is going to help me find out by being the place that I come to discuss the doses of daily dharma that I have sent to my in-box twice a day and some how becoming a healthier person through contemplation and mindfulness... at least... I hope.

That being said- this seems like a pretty opportune time to just put out a tiny disclaimer: cynicism will sneak in and out if i intend for it to, or not.......so, let's just embrace it and go with it!

So, Dear Bliss.... I'm comin' for you! Watch out!

KK.